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真的只是有时候。。。

2010-05-05T19:38:00.000-07:00

真的只是有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。

真的只是有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。

真的只是有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。

真的只是有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。

真的只是有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。

真的只是有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。

真的只是有时候，希望时间为自己停下，就这样和喜欢的人地老天荒。

真的只是有时候，在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。

真的只是有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。

真的只是有时候，夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。

真的只是有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。

真的只是有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。

真的只是有时候，觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。

真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。

真的只是有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次。

真的只是有时候，自己的梦想很多，却力不从心。

真的只是有时候，常常找不到事情，无聊的无所适从。

真的只是有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢了。

真的只是有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。

真的只是有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。

真的只是有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。

真的只是有时候，听到一首老歌，就突然想起一个人。

真的只是有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。

真的只是有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。

真的只是有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。

真的只是有时候，渴望一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱，很想去做一些疯狂的事。

真的只是有时候，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。

真的只是有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，自己却无能为力。

其实，真的只是有时候。。。

Normal Day

2009-10-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

haix..
stil in sick mood...
4th day I'm stil sick=.=
sad..

during afternoon..
went to klcc to meet wif my old bud-Lok Chern..
to get the drawing that I requested him to help me^^
in LRT..
met wif my fren's sis..
god she grown hot..
no wonder they said that women's 17 changes..
in klcc..
v went kinokuniya..
he was looking for an eraser..
special name but aint special at all..
like those freebies by mcd 1s>_<
anything la..
since he wanted.. I paid for it..

then v went to pasar seni..
at thr.. he get his hair cut at CoCo..
wanted to get discount but cant..
RM40nett poor him>_<
the worse thing is..
juz cut abit..
haix.. go prima setapak thr even nicer..
then v went to another artistic shop..
he went and bought a A3 art block with more than 140mgs and 1 faber castel pen..
both worth RM16.50 but he managed to get discount of 50 cents..
funny.. xD
then he let me pay for the pen..
a normal pen.. RM7..
swt-ing.. no comment..
juz show cashier the money...

after that..
v walk around that area..
n walked into a drawings fair poster..
he had an idea of goin for it..
then when v went in..
it seeemed like that v're in the wrong place..
without hesitating.. v went out of that place..
after walking for sometimes..
v decided to go back le..
cz he dun wanna waste his money on playings..

haix..
boring..
so i decided to try out to go klia by LRT..
then when reached that place..
it was empty..
din c anything related to flights..
when i saw the sign board..
juz realised..
LRT can only take me to KL Sentral..
then asked my fren bout how to get to KLIA..
waited for some times.. stil no replies..
sad..
then went back Terminal Putra and drove home..

conclusion..
the drawing's total price was RM10..
then travelled to KL Sentral for nth..
haiz..
94% luck..
good job for my luck~
emo...
shall rest earlier tonight..
hope tomoro's a better day..
ciaoz

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2009-09-30T22:51:00.000-07:00

lolx..
the song really woke me up..
in addition..
it also *blessed* me with sicknessT_T~~
haix..
sad case..
look at those pills..
like taking tonz of drugsT_T

on the way back home..
my mom saw ppl selling newspaper..
itz an late-aged couple..
although the work is quite tiring..
but their face stil can present a smiley~
from that..
I finally understand something so important
but simple til i din even notice it these years..

no matter wat you do..
or wat state you're in..
juz live your life in the fullest..
smiles always..
thats the best living style..

P.S. hoping I'll recover ASAP and returned to my hyperactive state^^

Oh Damn~~ My RM500 juz flew away like tat...

2009-09-30T02:52:00.000-07:00

in order to get the 50% bday bonus~
I reloaded RM300 into each of my 2 digi simcards during my bday..
then during that period til nw..
I've been reloading quite an amount too>_<
sadly..
when I was going to get my simcard reloaded..
I turned on the phone and
on the screen..
it stated *Inactive Sim*
I was damn worried..
So I went and found the Digi's Helpline..
I called and asked bout the Inactive Sim problem==
what a shock..
customer service ppl said to me..
*Your simcard has been TERMINATED*
I was damn shocked...
then without saying anything..
I ended the call..
I was like wadda fuck...
my RM500 juz flew away like thatT_T

haiz..
itz too late to regret nw though..
by acting like that silly kid also wont helped much>_<

my only chance solution is to gain back the money I lostT_T
n get back 1 more Digi Simcard xD~

they said too many simcards are hard to handle..
but nt for me..
nw i've learnt my lesson..
so i muz pay more attentions to my simcards!! xP~~

PD Trip Plan

2009-09-27T16:03:00.000-07:00

Our long-planned PD trip is finally done..
Din believe that planning a trip would be so hard..
but it finally had been accomplished..
Currently packing my luggage and waiting the time to come~
Wee~~ lolx

Moody Day

2009-09-07T07:17:00.000-07:00

Yea while I'm having bad day~
sad to tell..
juz as I woke up from my dreams..
I felt damn headache..
thinking of the past again..
so sadT_T
so suffering@_@

++
Today's da day for BMS exam..
v did our last min *re-arm* for the war in library..
wooh.. so damn cold~@_@
while they were having their jokes,
I was forced to make fake laugh@_@
so lame~>_<>_<>_<
just hoping they'll at least get a pass..
so wont resit for the same paper..

congrats to my jie~
which has fin all her exam today
hope her results wil b flying colours as usual^^

Well..
ENG DOWN
HE DOWN
BMS DOWN
So... Left 2 more to go~~
I'm nt gonna study today
cz quite moody..
haix.. goin to sleep soon..
hoping tomoro'll b a better day^^

*enjoying new song sent by jie*

A Rainy Day

2009-09-04T06:49:00.000-07:00

some people said..
*a lot of people get sad when it rains*
I'm too among these people..

Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.
V cant control our pinned-up emotions
when its the nature time of it to be released in whole..

At this moment...
Flashing back into the past..
all the sorrow and regreted incidents
slowly appearing in front of my eye..
slowing the time zone..

I felt like lying on the floor
with no heartbeats..
my vision blurring slowly..
turning myself down~
all I hear
is just the sorrowful raindrops

Life, death, and love
all seemed to be united by the rhythm of rain,
and the perfect translocation of it into sad sad song.

A New Beginning

2009-09-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

~Moshi Mosh!~
>Yo! V is Back<

Well~~
it has been such a long long time since I touch the word *blogging* dy~
the main reason I'm starting it because of the appearance of my English Exam..
I found out my writing skills and elaborations have been rusted for such a long time..
so I guess now wil be the best time to start sharpening it back before its too late>,<

hurmm..
v planned few study group sessions last few days..
some days successfully studied abit>_<
some days just b lotz n lotz *mamak* talkings session~
interesting and educative~
*kaka*

Today is our 1st day to sit for the exam..
da 1st subject would be AELE1133 English Language
(wrote til can type it w/out thinking lolx)
come to think of it
I'm sad to find out that I've really forgotten big mass of vocab stored in my brainT_T

when I 1st saw the ques paper..
the topic was a story startin with *When I saw his face, I felt that he was really angry..*
my brainstorm started automatically without hesitating
and came out with many writing ideas

The ideas of the story would be:
1. Betrayal between Friends **quite boring**
2. Arguement/Fights between Friends "nt very catching''
3. Cheater in Exam *too normal*
4. Double Agent/ Spy for White vs Black **challenging**

By the advantages of a movie I recently watched-Black&White
which is totally related to my idea..
I've decided to write bout it..
It could be very interesting 1..
sadly I was out of vocab to use those inspiring words..
I was failed to write an good essayT_T
too late to regret nw..
It's too late~~

after da exam..
while eugene n I was walking to meet the others
v met wif our beloved English teacher- Ms. Cynthia Pong~
she asked bout our exam..
n okay = our answer
*hope nt to dissappoint her>_<*
v gathered at a shaded area near the carpark to retrieve our phones and my bag^^
**v put them in King's car xD**
then v head to the canteen to kill our hunger..
on the way, I've asked alot of ppl bout their exam feelings..
**even accidentally asked a person twice... dam embarassing><

then v planned to go for group study again..
v travelled from canteen 2
to library's 1st floor-2nd floor-3rd floor
then to another study area with is located above the toilet
sadly it was locked at the moment...
then v walk and walk..
til v gt a rough idea of going to Mcd
then da idea was accepted..
it was a long journey from the college to MU's Mcd..
totally speechless cz it looked so near when driving>_<

~I shall not look back to the past, I'll continue looking forward to the future~

but then.. I was very lucky too...
gt 3 beautiful girls to accompany me xP~~
between the chatings..
I also found out that Victor Kan was my ex-classmate
world is really small>_<

By ending this post..
I wish everyone to hav flying coloured results!!!
good luck on your exams..^^

P.S. Watching La-Cha-Ta MV by f(x) band cmon~~*thx to bro euwing~~*

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